Dawn Gibson, a reporter for the Sooke News Mirror 鈥� a Black Press Media publication 鈥� reflects on her struggles and accomplishments after taking on the challenge of training and then competing for the first time on an all-female boxing card last weekend on Vancouver Island.
Dear 18-year-old Dawn,
Stop doubting yourself.
Your parents just dropped you off in Calgary, and I know the SAIT campus is bigger and more populated than the town you came from, but don鈥檛 be scared. You are going to love that place, and once you meet people, the city isn鈥檛 going to seem as big and unfamiliar.
For reasons unknown, one of your new best pals, Andy, is going to be a die-hard Floyd Mayweather fan. I鈥檓 serious. Almost everything in his wardrobe says TMT on it (The Money Team, Mayweather鈥檚 brand), and he has pants that are patterned with dollar bills.
On Sept. 12, 2015, you and some friends will go to a bar with Andy to watch Floyd Mayweather鈥檚 鈥渓ast fight鈥� against Andre Berto. You guys are going to have a blast, get all fired up and be throwing fake punches in the air all night.
Remember those drunk, shadow boxing moves, young Dawn. They might become useful some day.
Your class sizes at SAIT will be small, and you鈥檙e going to absolutely gobble up everything you learn in school. Within the first week, you鈥檙e going to realize you want to major in photojournalism in the second year, but there are only 16 spots available and about 80 people competing for it.
鈥淭here鈥檚 no way I鈥檒l get in, these people have learned photography before, they鈥檙e older than me, more talented than me,鈥� you鈥檒l think.
You鈥檙e going to lose a lot of sleep thinking like that for the next eight months.
And now here鈥檚 a curve ball in case you thought worrying would be your only problem: in November, you鈥檙e going to tear your ACL and both menisci, and it鈥檚 going to hurt鈥� A LOT. I mean the worst pain you鈥檝e ever felt, and your knee is going to be stuck at a 90 degree angle for over a month.
Now you鈥檙e thinking, 鈥淗ow am I going to get from place to place, and shoot photos at events if I can鈥檛 even stand up? Now I鈥檓 for sure not going to get in the photo major.鈥�
But remember that time you played fastball provincials with torn ligaments in your ankle? See, you鈥檝e practiced for this.
| 9:27a.m. - Dawn Gibson steps onto the scale, weighing in at 55 kilograms. (Arnold Lim/Black Press) |
You鈥檙e going to get a wheelchair, and you are going to work that thing like a runway. You鈥檙e going to wheel yourself through a lot of snow trying to get places: photography events, class, the grocery store, and then eventually you鈥檒l get crutches.
Just keep limping forward, you skinny little warrior. Everything is going to change.
In May 2016 you鈥檙e going to get an email from SAIT. Congratulations, you earned one of those 16 spots in the photojournalism major.
Why did you doubt yourself so much?
By May 2017, when you鈥檝e lost all possible muscle tone and weigh about 110 pounds, you鈥檒l finally get surgery. And not even two weeks later, you鈥檙e going to move yourself out to B.C. 鈥� Vancouver Island actually, to find work.
Luckily, you鈥檒l snag a job writing for the Sooke News Mirror, and man, you are going to like it there.
After about six months, your boss is going to ask you to start boxing. Yes, you read that right, Muhammad Ali, Floyd Mayweather 鈥� BOXING 鈥� and you鈥檒l be writing a column about it.
I know what you鈥檙e thinking. 鈥�ABSOLUTELY NOT. Over my dead body. No way will I do that. Too much work, I just had knee surgery, I鈥檓 not tough enough, I can鈥檛 do it, blah blah blah鈥� boxing is not for me.鈥�
But guess what sweet cheeks? You do it. Welcome to The Money Team.
| 9:11 a.m. - Takes a moment to herself before weighing in for her 57kg fight against American boxer Marisa Lai. (Arnold Lim/Black Press) |
You鈥檙e going to learn all the basics, from throwing a punch, to moving around the ring, to defence, and more. There鈥檚 a lot more to know in boxing than you would expect.
You鈥檒l train at least five days a week for five months straight. I know right? I鈥檓 having a hard time believing it myself.
It鈥檚 going to be one of the most challenging things you鈥檝e ever done. Your body is going to be so sore you can barely move. You鈥檙e going to cry, you鈥檙e going to get punched in the face, you鈥檙e going to want to quit, but you鈥檙e going to stick to it.
Damn right you will.
| 5:40 p.m. - Dawn Gibson listens to music by herself while she patiently awaits her fight. (Arnold Lim/Black Press) |
Through all this self-discipline you鈥檙e going to gain back the muscle and weight you lost, and mentally, you are going to transform. You鈥檙e going to learn how to remove your emotions from pain and push through workouts better, control your nerves and anxiety, and be able to fight back when someone pushes you around. Literally and figuratively.
Now here鈥檚 where it gets really good, you sign up for a fight. A FIGHT. I warned you those drunk air punches would be put into action some day.
I鈥檒l give you a minute to let that sink in鈥�. Alright that鈥檚 long enough.
When the day of the fight comes, you are going to wake up feeling numb.
When you show up to the community hall for weigh-ins, a wave of nerves is going to crash over you. 鈥�Oh my god, I have to fight someone today in front of hundreds of people. I鈥檓 not ready.鈥�
Tell that voice in your head to shut up. You are ready.
You鈥檙e going to fight a girl named Marissa Lai from Pacifica California, who has almost the exact same body type as you.
While waiting, the suspense will practically kill you. In your head will be a constant battle, 鈥淚 don鈥檛 think I can do this.鈥�
鈥淥kay no, I鈥檓 fine, I鈥檝e trained for this.鈥�
鈥淲hat if I鈥檓 not prepared?鈥�
Just breathe.
Finally 6 p.m. rolls around. Time to start warming up.
When you get in the ring, I hate to tell you, but you鈥檙e going to forget everything you鈥檝e learned throughout training, and within 20 seconds of the first round she鈥檚 going to get you with a hard jab right to the nose, and it鈥檚 going to start bleeding.
鈥�Damn-it.鈥�
The first round ends, and you鈥檒l have blood gushing from your nose. 鈥�Oh no, everyone is going to think I鈥檓 hurt. They are going to call the fight. I鈥檓 going to lose.鈥�
Then second round starts, and suddenly, this new side of you that you鈥檝e been trying to channel for the last five months will kick in. 鈥�Well if everyone thinks I鈥檓 losing because I鈥檓 bleeding, I鈥檓 just going to have to fight that much harder.鈥�
It will feel like only moments have gone by when you hear the bell to end the second round, and by this time you鈥檒l be drenched in blood. A doctor will pinch your nose while your coach, Ellen, shoves Vaseline up it to try and stop the bleeding.
鈥�Who cares, let me get back out there I am not giving up.鈥�
When the third round starts, you are going to be in the zone. And I mean THE ZONE. Punches won鈥檛 hurt, you won鈥檛 feel winded, and everything will be silent to you, except the voice in your head.
鈥淵ou鈥檝e got this. Believe in yourself. Give it everything you have.鈥�
And before you know it, 鈥淒ING!鈥�, the fight will be over.
You will be covered in your own blood. Seriously, head-to-toe covered, girl. On your legs. On your arms. Everywhere.
They will call you to the centre of the ring, and you鈥檙e going to feel like a finalist on American Idol.
Then you鈥檒l hear the announcer say, 鈥淚t鈥檚 a split decision鈥� IN THE BLUE CORNER, DAAAAWN GIIIIBSON.鈥�
When your arm goes up, that same feeling you had when the letter came from SAIT will rush over you, a feeling of total self-pride. I hope you remember this moment and carry it with you for the rest of your life.
You did it. You WON! If this doesn鈥檛 finally open your eyes, I don鈥檛 know what will.
18-year-old Dawn, stop doubting yourself.
You are a lot tougher than you realize.
